It seems like it’s been so so long since I last wrote here. Reading mostly makes me want to write. Now mostly I try not to disclose too much about my personal life (as is recommended for the world wide web), but today probably I’ll break this norm.
First, I couldn’t write much because I did not have much relaxed time like now to write and enjoy music and other forms of art etc.
Second, recently, for not more than a week, I have tried to figure out what to do with my life. I love Love the arts. But my mind-set is kind of orthodox. I feel that you need great Heart and Soul and an absolutely beautiful Brain and awesome hands to draw/paint/make sculptures. But I also believe that art is ‘going away from surroundings and reaching within’. But as long as I am alive, I want to be aware. Of both inside and outside. Hence, I need academic learning as well as art in my Life.
This brings me to sharing the fact that I’m also frustrated trying to find my calling, my way of life, the work that I’d do to make a living. All my peers have something in mind. Some are working extensively towards placements, some are bent on MBA, some definitely want to Master their own subject while others want to become a Civil Servant. Me, I am blank. And looking for answers exhausts me. (I do somewhat lack confidence and understanding of my aptitude, for which I plan to seek some guidance, and there is this fact that I loathe what I’m studying now. Believe me I don’t hate studies, but I feel that some brains are not meant for certain kind of information processing.)
And hence, I read, and I found this to be rather interesting (as quoted from an IAS officer’s blog) on how to decide whether the Civil Services is what you want to join. This, though, I find apt for most major life decisions:
“what is your death-bed story? As morbid as it sounds, I personally rate it as the most important question when deciding whether or not (to join the services). When you look back at your life from your deathbed, how would you have wanted to live it? Are you willing to take someone else’s dream and live it as your own, or are you willing to find your own?”
x— and now shifting to a completely different tune —x
I watched these two new movies last week(I watched many movies, I’m talking about only these 😛 ).
One started on an awesome note. It’s a narrative by a girl who died in adolescence due to a tragedy. Loved the concept, the artistic way that it was made in. But towards the end, the story kind of weakened. Also the film was rather scattered, it was kind of hard to see a point, which by the way is never necessary in artistic works, yet, as I said, a story started well needs to be finished well. So this ended up a disappointment.
The film: The Lovely Bones(2009)
The second one now. Okay I have heard people go on and on about how Kristen Stewart can’t show expressions and hence is not such a good actor (as compared to her supposed competitor Emma Watson, both being the same age and being the lead heroine of super cults). I commend her on her acting in this film.(I have seen only 1 twilight film which I do not remember at all..guess how attentive I am.) Bottom line is I liked this film. It did not lack art (though maybe it did not have the same kind of..how do I put it..directorial art) and it was intelligent. Just the combination. 🙂 In fact they have really shown a great importance of art in the film. What do I say, I watched it last night, and it touched me so that I had to write a bit of a praise here.
The film: Speak(2004)
Watching the film also made me think about this thing which I’m not going to write about and bore you. The thought was something about not sharing things, and that’s what I’m going to do for that thought…for now at least.
élan vital 